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A story of young love that captured our hearts with sweet memories and songs, feelings that gave you this tingling and made you feel like you are the most luckiest person in the world, being a poet while watching the sunset in the horizon and knowing that some one some where is doing the same thing. As much as it was young and full of happiness and tender feelings, as much as it took a knife and stapped it deep down through, and flipped asside so the wound wont heal…

It took a part a long time ago, and it started as a pure innocent friendship where i believe it was a point of no return. She was the happiness of life for him, and she was the main purpose for him to be at that particular place every single day. some how, it was never too fast from the way it started. However, it never ended any longer than it was meant to be. The way she was walking by, giving that smile withwhich it makes him cry every time he remembers it. She used to come and sit beside him at times when he felt lonely or sad, she never asked about what bothers him while she knows the pain he might suffer, but she always kept him smiling no matter what was it that made him sad, and every time she succeeded in blowing that pain away. He loved her with every single meaning that this word might hold within. He admired the way she talks, thinks, laughs.. deep down in his chest, she was the only one who managed to get his heart jumping like a child playing around. A year passed as this never ending feeling was taking place, but it was not long enough til the day came and he had to go away as his destiny desired. what was left behind.. songs that he sang for her as she sat down on that chair and kept listening as the rythm goes in to her heart and let her know what does she means to him. Every time she talked to him, she had this voice and warmth that kept him warm every cold night..her voice was soft and gentle that once he listen to it, he tries hard to memorize it… but he never succeeded in that. The way she cares and loves was an inspiration to him.

Problems had to appear sooner or later as people tried to intrefere in between them, the only thing he believed was that it never was her fault, nor his though both of them argued and argued til it got complicated entirely… years went over, but the pain for that loss never vanished in him. As much as he knows that he wants her back so badly that he never stopped thinking about her, or knowing how is she doing after all this time, as much as he knows that he can’t go back to her, he can’t be with her anymore, what ever both of them do, or say, it wont be as it was……..

A weird topic to start with. i guess all of you now wondering what do i mean by this.. what i meant is that every single one of us has a treasure. it is located deep down in our hearts, you and only you know about that treasure.the treasure is your secrets that you hide deep down there. actually it is silly, i totally agree with you, but if you just think about it, you will find that it is correct. your secrets that you hide, your memories and your feelings that you have ever felt before are the most precious things that you hold onto in your heart, they are what creat your presonality. they are your treasure. To me, i do reveal that treasure every single night, searching for all the memories that cannot be revealed unless a tear is on the cheek… sometimes, i wish if i could go back to the moment where that memory was created. i wish i could re-live that specific moment when i felt the happiness in my heart as i’ve never felt before, or maybe even after.. Although, i have done so many mistakes in the past, but i don’t regret them, becuz it’s in the nature of a human to re-correct the mistake that he have done. if one doesnot care about it, then i guess you have a stone down there, not a heart, no insult =).  when i go through every thing that i have been through in my life, i still miss all the people i have met, all the people that i have felt some feelings for them, my best friends that are scattered all over the world looking for a way to build up their future and move on, i do realise that this was ment to happen in the first place. every thing that happend, lead to the other until it reached today.. i don’t know what made me write this, but i felt what i didn’t feel a long time ago, i felt the need to my family, my friends, and all the happy times i have lived, wishing that i could see every thing again..

To every one who is practically reading this, welcome to my blog.

         At first i saw many people writing in this thing called a blog. However, i’ve never enjoyed revealing what do i hide deep down there nither on papers nor inside the net or a profile. I just used to keep it inside though sometimes i do feel the pressure but.. i kinda liked it!!…

       It was a matter of time indeed for many things that happend in my life, and it doesn’t differ between being where i used to be, or where am i at the very moment.. and this might sound weird, but i had this obsession with Harry Potter’s movies since he was a kid til his latest one. Today i realised that this unusual obsession was sourt of connected to what i have experienced. I found out the reason why do i keep watching this story every single day. I was actually searching for any scene that would prove that harry might be regreting that he had grown old enough to face this massive obstacles. I do regret that they have grown old, and i do miss the first movie they’ve made. In another words i do miss my childhood… that what i ment by they were connected.

i wont make this any longer, but i would prefer to save more for the next days, perhaps i would experience some thing new who knows… thanx for reading this peace…